In addition, it is not uncommon for the “blue” Aspie to use drugs or alcohol to try to relieve his or her despondency and other unpleasant emotions.
Oftentimes, autistic adults’ paranoid tendencies result in a self-fulfilling prophecy.
For the purposes of this post, the term “blue mood” is used to describe a mild form of depression, but one that is chronic (i.e., lingering through the life-span).
For the person with Asperger’s (high-functioning autism), a blue mood often begins in adolescence due to his or her lack of social skills and inability to fit-in with the peer group, being criticized, teased, bullied, and ostracized – all of which usually result in low self-esteem and a preference for social isolation (i.e., preferring to be by oneself).
Ridicule and rejection often takes its toll over the years, resulting in not only a pervasive blue mood, but also an element of paranoia in the mind of the “Aspie.” In other words, he or she is so used to being mistreated (emotionally and/or verbally) that he or she comes to expect it.
Being highly suspicious of others, preparing for an attack of some kind, and jumping to defensiveness very quickly is not uncommon in adults on the autism spectrum.
This, in turn, convinces the Aspie that others and indeed “out to get” him or her.
Unfortunately, many people with Asperger’s not only had to endure various forms of social stress throughout the school years, they now experience much of the same at their place of employment. The main venue for the Aspie’s retaliation against others for past hurts tends to be online (e.g., in chatrooms, forums, etc.) where he or she can chastise others, yet remain fairly anonymous.
The typical Asperger’s adult does not have the confidence or social skills to stand up to the “offending party” face-to-face.
As adults, Aspies with a blue mood experience little joy in their lives.
They tend to take life too seriously, and to take other’s comments and behavior too personally.
In fact, many Asperger’s adults that I have worked with are unable to remember a time when you felt happy, enthusiastic, or motivated.
They often report feeling as though they have been in a one-down-position their entire life.